Refresh and Restart

It has been a long time since I blogged here. I started another blog but wasn't able to add google analytics unless I pay quite a bit. I think I should be able to add it here for free. It was interesting to come back and review what I had written years ago. Much of it still applies but much has changed. There is more that I would add to my bucketlist and some that I have made progress on. Last summer, I took a brief photography class. It was my birthday present. The thing that I want most on my list is to become a home owner. We've come up against some personal and financial challenges so our course hasn't exactly gone the way that we were hoping. Most importantly though we haven't given up and continue moving forward. We are at a point though that we are getting to be in a better position. I am still trying to figure out what it is exactly that I want to do. What will make me happy. For now, I am a Social Science Instructor. I teach psychology and sociology. I have found that it can be interesting, challenging, fun, and rewarding at times. I have found that it can also be really challenging and frustrating -- or that I can be really frustrated when I feel that I am not measuring up at the time to what I hoped to be in teaching. I want to be the very best -- I want an A. Err, A+, 4.0, whatever the highest is. Then again, is that enough even? I am tired of hustling for everything but it is difficult to stop. It is difficult to change. It takes a lot of awareness, conscious thought and effort. I have counseling to be helpful. I have also found that reading and reflecting on "The Gifts of Imperfection" by Brene Brown to be helpful.